just came back from training. it was wkjsdavmhouiasmcadvslzikj. we had training 4 days straight. monday from 2-6, but we stayed until about 6.50, so tats 5 hours! tues n wed 9-12. today 5h. i feel so f-ing XIAN. i just keep doing the same thing OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND AGAIN AND WAIT FOR FREAKIN LONG TIME B4 MY TURN AND MY SUCCESS RATE TURNS OUT LIKE 1 OUT OF 5. SHO WONDERFUL. shizzo. sometimes i really wonder y i join gym. IT'S SO BORING U JUST DO THE SAME ROUTINE OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND IT'S HARD AND IT'S EVEN HARDER TO CHENG GONG. but then i think again of i didnt join, i wouldnt have such awesome friends. so, im still here! haiz. i love gym. nvm. im gonna have a positive mindset. i will not be xian. i will love trng. when i f-ing hate it. argh. BUT if i've lian for so long already, it's ke xi to just give up now. so why not i just continue and go for it?! "if you ever feel like giving up, think of why you have held there for so long." haha! i cant believe im going into the phase of self-motivation! actually i always had this driving force in me for gym, but today i just lost it. dammit. GIVE IT BACK TO ME~! NOW! ok i should eat ben n jerry's to lighten my mood. IT ALWAYS HELPS :D