potatoes. :d

life feels so screwed now.
screwed #1: RS! i really really wanna join jpsl'10 cmps but the problem is they already have 8, 9 people can la the only problem is tat my name wont appear on the report, and if we win i dont get to go to usa. i am sort of the shadow and tinee whinney helper but gets raffles diploma and cip hours and recorded on report book (?), which was the thing tat forced me to do rs in the first place. so DILEMMA hard hard.
screwed #2: CHEER! founder's day dance is not tat hard but i seem to have lost all my dancey-ness and i am not able to dance well. and i cant seem to remember the choreo! today at prac i just totally blank out in front of mr anguillia. and need to choreo richard dance but not gd at choreographing hip hopish sexy things. cant choreo those stuff. not fast stuffs.
screwed #3: GYM! actually i was screwed for gym from the very start bcos my nan dus and apparatus skills are just not gd. but recently cos miki has to change to optionals and she needs her rubber clubs so i have to give back. initially i borrowed hers for comp bcos i like rubber clubs more and am not that scared of if then the heavy hard plastic clubs. but now she needs it i have to borrow from tab. n i feel very very paiseh to ask cos i feel so bad! as in borrow apparatus for comp leh! and then if she doesnt lend me, i'll have to lian with the plastic ones, which i duno wat will happen.
screwed #4: MY BRAIN! i think my brain has depleted a little bcos recently my comprehensive skills seem to have dropped a lot. i am unable to understand the simplest question and is constantly huh-ing here and there. im very worried for myself hahaha. i hope im not turning stupid. i hope im not turning like sb in flowers for algernon. is it charlie or wat? the main character's name. duno la. haiz.
so basically, everything in my life now is screwed ttm. God please help me. ok i think i need to help myself first.